Struggles through week 1

Man oh man you guys! So last week when the fast started it was a hard time for me, even throughout the week, to the point that at one point I was told I couldn't participate in the fast by a doctor, he's a Christian and knows the importance of fasting, but told me that I wouldn't be able to do this for 30 days. I was shattered...I know that God called me to do this fast!

So I came up with a resolution, I would juice for breakfast and a snack, I would eat a salad for lunch with no dressing and then for dinner I would eat a sensible healthy meal. He bought it! I am able to continue the fast a little altered but none the less!

And you guys, I have to tell you I have met God on a whole new level, I've known for the past few months that God has been trying to tell me a few things REST REST REST REST REST was one of them, and guess what I kept going and going and going and going...it was wearing me down. This week for the first time, I found several opportunities to say you know what, it's really not that important I can do it later and rest, or I can do it in the morning and go to bed before midnight. This weekend for the first time in I can't even remember how long, I stayed in my PJ's from morning til' evening when I had to babysit and did nothing all day long, but rest, spend time with God and read a book I've been holding onto.

There are a few other personal things that God has been speaking to me about, but through prayer and scripture He's allowed me to gain an entirely new perspective on somethings.

I was extremely nervous about this fast, but I am so thankful that God has called me to continue even though I can't participate to the fullest, I am so glad that God is allowing me opportunities to get closer to him, to grow in Him and to discover new things about myself.

So my prayer for today for myself and all of us is this...

Oh Lord, thank you! thank you! thank you! I wish I could stay on rooftops and shout my thankfulness up to you and down to the world, I am so thankful for who YOU are in all of our lives Lord, I am so thankful for this group of people who you've called to starve for you Lord. I am thankful for a group of friends who will step out of comfort and the "norm" to draw closer to you.

Lord as we go back into our work places, our schools or wherever you may have us today and this week Lord, I pray that we continue to be living breathing testimonies of who YOU are. I pray that we are living our lives in such a way that people ask questions, they want to know what's different about us.

God I thank you personally for the opportunities you've allowed me to share your love with people who don't know you this past week Lord. I thank you for calling me out my comfortable place to share my uncomfortable story. God I thank you for the healing I've felt this week, I thank you for restoring that you're doing in my life, I thank you for the Grace and Mercy you allowed for me this week Lord.

I ask and pray all of these things in your precious and holy name Amen.